That additionally looks as if a part of getting older — how do you determine what recommendation makes you a greater particular person? In the event you’re predisposed to being onerous on your self, how are you aware what is helpful vs. what’s going to ship you spiraling? In the event you’re attempting to do all the things proper and foresee unhealthy strikes earlier than you make them, how do you deal with errors? “I simply had this dialog with my therapist yesterday morning,” Olivia says. “Shit’s actual.”
Being a younger star has strengthened the concept for Olivia that there isn’t any room for error. “That’s one thing I’ve all the time felt confused over [while] rising up,” she says. “While you’re within the trade, you’re kind of handled like a baby however anticipated to behave like an grownup. That’s a extremely terrifying thought, to suppose that I’m not allowed to make any errors, as a result of I believe that’s the way you develop as an individual. I’m no completely different from another 18-year-old on the market. I’m undoubtedly going to make quite a lot of errors in my life and in my profession most likely too. That’s simply life.”
Just a few months in the past, Saturday Evening Reside comic and author Bowen Yang interviewed Olivia for V Journal. He requested her about present as an Asian artist (Olivia is an element Filipina), and the way she thinks about her profession from that standpoint. “I generally get DMs from little women being like, ‘I’ve by no means seen somebody who appeared like me in your place.’ And I’m actually going to cry. Like, simply interested by it. I really feel like I grew up by no means seeing that. Additionally, it was all the time like, ‘pop star’ — that’s a white woman.”
Olivia has stated related issues about her identification earlier than, however this specific phrasing struck a nerve with some after that quote was aggregated by retailers like Web page Six. The criticism was layered: Olivia grew up within the late 2000s and early 2010s, when nonwhite pop stars like Beyoncé, Rihanna, and extra not solely existed however have been taking up the charts. To many, her phrases felt at greatest complicated, at worst like erasure.
Olivia has seen this discourse, and interested by it makes one thing like anguish cross her face. “That was actually unhappy for me to see,” she says. “I actually really feel like my phrases have been taken so out of context … What I used to be saying is that it was cool to see women of Filipino heritage DM me and be like, ‘Oh, it’s so cool to see somebody that appears like me, and that’s actually empowering.’”
Maybe she stated it a bit extra clearly in an interview with The Guardian in Could: “It’s onerous for anybody to develop up on this media the place it looks like should you don’t have European options and blonde hair and blue eyes, you’re not historically fairly,” she stated then. She’s nonetheless determining learn how to speak about race, ethnicity, and having a platform past an announcement she repeats twice: “I believe illustration is all about including. I don’t suppose it’s about taking something away from anybody.”